I am terrified to call people and do call calling. And I know that I'm scared to call the calling. I don't go for it, I just end up doing all the things at the time where it's really a bad position to be in the end, I just procrastinate more and more. I thought it would be a good start because it would be the minimum of the night and I would be in my love for it. I feel like it's such an easy task. I should be able to do it no questions. And at the same time, there's so much pain.